Here I Am Again

It seems to be a habit of mine to end up staring at random notes for a paper due just around the corner.  I am at a standstill.  What makes it worse this time is the fact that I don't like the class, and am generally uninterested in the most interesting topic I could even think of to fill 4 pages with.  I'm trying not to regret going for a full time semester.  It's been a little overwhelming, and now that the semester is coming to a close, each class has large assignments all at once.  While I can't say that I was unaware of all of these projects from day one, my judgement on my ability to manage my time and prioritize things was less than realistic.
When choosing my classes for this semester, I didn't foresee so much writing being involved.  Though I have surprised myself by my ability to finish as many papers as I have and, most importantly, be satisfied with the finished product, there have been just as many that have been totally disappointing.  My current struggle is worth 25% of my Humanities grade.  It is due in 3 days, and I have only a questionable outline and thesis statement.  I may have to just give in and write a crappy paper.  Something is better than nothing, right?  Ugh.

Does anyone want to write my paper on Gabriel Garcia Marquez's 100 Years of Solitude and it's impact on Magical Realism and Latin America??  Anyone?  Bueller??

Writer's Block

     I have essentially been staring at a blank page for the past four hours.  We recently talked about writer's block in my English class, and our last journal topic was about those things that most distract us.  Looks like I overlooked the most dominant dilatory influence- my own procrastination and inability to focus.  I have a 500 word essay due tomorrow at noon, but since I work at 6am, I will have to finish it tonight.
     To bring up another English 111 discussion, yesterdays class involved outlining.  Well, when you have an outline for a 500 word essay, then have to somehow include answers to four almost completely unrelated questions involving the 1000 word article that can be your only source of information, things get a little difficult. So, here I sit, completely capable of writing about the fact that I can't write this paper. "Why?" You ask?  Because it will simply be a bad paper.
     I have already answered the questions needed without a hitch.  The problem lies with making them flow together in a paper that will be graded partly on structure.  I haven't written many papers, and it's been over a decade since I have done on at all, so maybe there is a way to work through an issue such as this, but I simply don't have the experience yet to do it.  Though I know I can write it, perhaps the biggest problem is that I know it will be crap, even if it meets the requirements of the professor.
     I'm going to read the article for the fourth time now and see what happens.  Ugh.