Distraction

I have two papers due this week, and I still have yet to start one of them.  Honestly, I don't even know how I managed to get as much down on paper as I have today.  I gave up on the idea of "being a writer" when I realized I would never get anything finished because of my anal retentive ways convincing me that what I liked while writing it, became shit by the time I read it over a few days later.  I think I've also forgotten quite a bit of my once fairly impressive vocabulary.  My ability to retain information has been failing me as of late.
Ugh. Back to the grind.

Get Creative!

I stumbled upon a great post on The World's Best Ever that I just had to share.

A First For Everything

I am sitting here at the library writing my English paper when it dawns on me, this is actually the first college paper I have ever written.  Even in high school I only did 3 papers at the most, and they were all 2 page book reviews. All of the writing I have done in the past ten or so years has really just been rambling, unedited babble.    Now that I am aware of the critical eye my writing will have on it, I must admit, I am a little nervous.  I've already had some great feedback at home. Though this means that now I find myself being overly critical of every comma I even consider placing.
I realize it has been a long time since I was in an official learning environment, but I still have high expectations of myself.  I am trying hard not to be too disappointed with myself for  thus far failing to achieve the standard I set for myself.

Going Mobile

This is me testing my new found techie skills on mobile blogging.  :)

I'm trying something new.  We are currently in class tweaking our blogs, and I am attempting (unsuccessfully, it seams)  to set up a mobile account for my blog.  I never claimed to be tech savvy.

UPDATE!
The app is downloading now! This will be great for the inevitable time I am running late for class and realize I am one blog short of the requirement.  My next post will be the official test.

Busy bee

It has been a crazy week!
     3 day drill
     re-enlisting for another 6 years (! or ?- my thoughts on this keep changing)
     brand new car is in the shop- again! (yes, this time I am sure)
     psychology mid-term (a little disappointed in my grade, and miffed that detailed results aren't available to see what I did wrong)
     750 word paper to write!!! (still have no idea what to write about)
     just thinking about the fact that I have only LOOKED at the half dozen unfinished paintings sitting in my studio while I have spent every spare ounce of time and energy doing homework. ugh.

I had to move my canvases to avoid feeling guilty for avoiding them :(

I was thinking of doing my English paper on painting (mainly to relieve some of my guilt) but there really is no process that I use.  I have an object, I throw paint or some textured stuff on said object until it looks cool, then it usually sits around awhile until I find the right subject for the background, then I paint the subject. I don't know, maybe if I think about it enough I can figure out a way to use it.  I miss painting, but I am so distracted with school right now that I just can't let myself get lost in it.  Yes, I mean lost.  When I paint, the rest of the world ceases to exist.  I can spend an entire 14 hour session working on a piece without even realizing that I forgot to eat.  An example of one of these days is a  portrait I did for a friend a few months ago.  While it was extremely fulfilling to do, and great surprising her with it, I no longer have the luxury of time these days.  My homework won't do itself!

Total work spent: approximately 22 hours

Toughing It Out

     I think I have learned my lesson.  After finally just writing my last history paper (then having someone else read it, then going back again and revising it to make sure all the necessary parts were included) I have gone through the course outlines from each of my classes and set a calender, prioritizing all of the major papers I have coming.  The last thing I need is to be stuck at the last minute like today, only having a bigger assignment than my time can accommodate.  This next week is gonna be tough with a 3-day drill weekend that includes a diagnostic pt test (and have I mentioned that pt is one of the things I procrastinate about the most?) and an exam the following Monday to prepare for.

     This is one of those times I wish I was one of those people that not only enjoys working out, but used it to help focus pump myself up.  It's just not as easy to do when my work schedule is up and down and I have to rely on only myself to stay motivated.  Maybe I should just get up and run now.  Hmmmm...

...... well, I have to be to work tomorrow at 0615.  I should probably just go to bed instead.  Yeah, in my head are all of those thousands of excuses I come up with every time there is no real reason not to do something I know I should. :/